Posted in Just Things

Things I like

I like the sound of the keyboard as I type this … tat tat tat tat… it’s so  crispy.

I like that the room I am in is hot and sweat is rappelling down my temples… it helps with not thinking.

I also like it when all thoughts of you are negated by physical activity… It makes everyday bearable.

I like it when I think of you mid-reverie of something that bothers me… the uncontrollable smile that sweeps my face and licks some of the anger away. 


Posted in Reviews

Game of Thrones Season 6 Episode 4 – Review

Spoiler alert. Do not read if you have not watched Episode 4 yet. Actually, don’t read if you haven’t watched the series. Too many big things happened.

Might, I just say. It was absolutely amazing!

Damn it, Benioff and Weiss! Although, this season clearly deviates from the Book Series (well duh, Season 6 is far off from what happens in A Dance of Dragons!) but anyway, let’s talk about the major points in this episode.

Note: This is my first time doing a review so I might not be that helpful.

Okay, that Jon and Sansa reunion. Knock Knock on Castle Black gates, in comes Brienne, Pod and Sansa Stark. We’ve all been holding our breaths for a Stark reunion, I mean literally, any Stark reunion because the Starks are so awesome (Especially, Tony! *off topic*) That long hug clearly does not portray a blooming romance (Sorry, Jon and Sansa shippers) but a hug of relief at being – for once after a long time – safe and in the arms of someone who is a part of home.

Jon and Sansa never really got along when they were in Winterfell but it was instilled in them that they were family. And, that was a powerful thing in this episode. They might be broken up and countries apart but they found each other and that’s what matters.
Although, I’m a little disappointed in Sansa’s commentary on Wilding loyalty. I thought she grew up last season and then – BAM! – she comes back as a naive little girl again – even Robb realized that this was more than the Stark family lives but everyone else’s. But, who can blame her? We all want that bastard Ramsay dead. She spent emotional and occasionally physical torture in King’s Landing and the Ramsay shit. Anyway, I am also very excited that Jon can freely travel now, with his Oath becoming void and where he and Sansa will go – assuming that they ever get a chance to go.

Moving on! Littlefinger is back in the game! Well played, Baelish, using the fondness of a sickly young boy to actualize your ambitions. Ugh. Social Climber. -_-

The thing about this  slimy man is, he doesn’t care about shit but himself. It would be interesting to see him play his pawns again and who will he rally behind with? That’s food for thought.

Tyrion is in hot water with the people of Meereen, with our favorite Khaleesi off in Vaes Dothrak, he assumes command and has made an enemy with former slaves. I personally admire Tyrion for his wits, and find his decision rational and reasonable. And that is exactly what Missandei and Grey Worm can’t see.

Slavery is embedded in the continent of Essos and removing that completely all in one stroke is hard. For Grey Worm, he just wants to kill everyone opposing the Queen but you can’t just use military shit every damn time, that would just cause more rebellions and no one would really be safe. A shot of diplomacy is the right taste for the Masters to see reason (which Tyrion did nicely, and yes the booty 😀 ) and unfortunately, I have no control over Missandei, Grey Worm and David Benioff and Dan Weiss. So, yeah, let them play it off.

Jorah and Daario enter Vaes Dothrak and find Daenerys… and if you’ve watched the episode you’ll know. They don’t interest me that much. Couple of lovesick idiots. Meh.

Going to King’s Landing, Cersie and Olenna strike an alliance to end the reign of the High Sparrow’s fanaticism. The plan is  to rally Tyrell troops and stand down until the time is right – I think –  and kill the High Sparrow before Margaery takes her walk of atonement. Olenna, protective of her kin, backs up Cersei and Jaime when Kevan Lannister was skeptical about what King Tommen would think. In the end, the two mothers got what they wanted, so it’s safe to assume that we’ll be seeing another dead bird.

It’s brother and sister love this episode! I’ve already mentioned Jon and Sansa (Yes, I’m biased to the Starks – sorry) let’s talk about Margaery and Loras. We all know they’re super close, with Margaery even entering Loras’s room while he’s in bed with another man.

In that scene where Margaery was allowed to see her brother, he breaks down and just wants the torture  to stop. And, Margaery being the perfect little witch-ling of Olenna doesn’t want his brother to do anything like that. This builds her character more, and I think pronounces her strong-will and – we can assume – her lies in being kind to the poor, etc. Although, you can never be sure in Game of Thrones. The characters aren’t black and white as shown in usual fantasy series, we’re dealing with all grays here.

We then find ourselves with Theon and Yara’s (Asha – in the books) interaction. This was a powerful scene. Yara, distraught about her father’s demise and how the Iron Born don’t make Kings and Lords from heirs (or maybe they’re just sexist like everyone else on the show and don’t want to take orders from a person with a cunt; they choose their leaders based on their strength), sees Theon and just rips at him. She loves her brother even after everything. Though she feels disgusted that Theon came back and assumed that he wanted the Iron Throne for himself, the story turns us around when Theon said that her sister deserved the Throne. Thus, another contingent in the game of thrones. I can hear the opening anthem!

[GAME OF THRONES is such a family oriented show! ]

Taking a peep at Winterfell, we all know that Rickon is home with a violent host. Ramsay, being as he is, kills Osha – I think just for kicks – well of course, to prevent another Stark from slipping through his fingers. So bleak a future for you Rickon.

And finally! Daenerys Targaryen with the most badass shit she’s ever pulled yet! Entering into the Dosh Khaleen Temple with all the Khals in Vaes Dothrak, they – The Khals – confer of what to do with Khal Drogo’s widow. Dany gave a whole goddamn speech about how she was basically better than every one of them and then burned them alive using the metal thingy’s where they put fire – I forgot what it’s called. And, so, repeating what happened in Season 1, emerging from a great fire unscathed, the Dothraki worship her as their new leader. Again, safe to assume that we will be seeing her in Westeros pretty soon.

Photo Credits to Google.


Posted in Poetry


I trekked up the trail of a million fallen leaves –
gradient from luster brown to bright scarlet – leaving crunched twigs
and imprints of presence
attempting to forget the woes of the heart where soft lips have
somersaulted – I can still feel the prickles on my skin,
And yet, my arms seem to disagree as thorns scratch embeddingly

Grappling for foothold after foothold
Water crashing on stray rocks and crickets croaking songs of battle
Birds signaled the clash as slithering reptiles quietly
watch the spectacle – all of this engages whilst I fight my own skirmish
Every fiber is wrung of ether, my body cries for reprieve but never a
Cry for surrender;

Deeper and deeper the woods embrace me, a blanket of leaves and a house of greens;
a numbing hollowness, a pit of despair and a rope of hope turning a head
Jailed in my own doing, I stop and heave; hands on my waists – an image of him flickers
I cast it aside. I cast him aside. I cast the world aside. I cast myself aside.
And the dangerous descent to a pool of shivering liquid,
slippery and slimy, Gaia transforms as another enemy.

Though at last, as I sit on a fallen log and green boulders cringe
while water laps at their nonexistent feet; above where the falling whites of summer
snow – angry and deranged – scream my internal tugs of war
For me;
the biting chill was solace
and the vines wept what I guarded so dearly.

Posted in Short Story

Eros Brew

There were blurs of light, music and drinks that disoriented Tanya. It made her body spaz with energy. And with heart and head throbbing in sync with the electric tune, she had no care in the world.

She was the world – a sweaty disco-crazed diva in the middle of the dance floor.

“Hey!” someone yelled in her ear, though it was faint with the music bombarding her eardrums. The stranger eased in front of her, dancing. Leaning over quite subtly, she tried to take a whiff of his cologne. (Tanya loved the smell of men’s cologne) Though, the tinge of alcohol in her mouth made her nose numb and her tongue tasted like bile but it was the least of her problems.

“Hey,” it came out as a slur and she laughed it off. The man laughed with her and the exchange became less awkward.

No, that wasn’t it. Nothing was awkward about this. Tanya just couldn’t find the right word to describe the meeting although it was like this every other night. Some guy would think it was their lucky night and would try to pick her up and yet, a year of coming in and out of this bar, getting wasted to the point of crawling or passing out on the chaise lounge, no one had succeeded in getting in her knickers.

“Can I buy you a drink?” he shouted.

“Yes!” she said without hesitation and the man grabbed her wrist and helped her maneuver towards the bar counter and then on the bar stool. As soon as she sat down, her head slumped on the counter and she laughed again. The man had disappeared.

And then he reappeared behind the counter. Tanya propped herself up, resting her chin atop her palm that connected to her swaying elbow while her heels clicked to the bass of Icona Pop.

“I thought you were going to buy me a drink?”

“I am,” he smiled, teeth gleaming in the low light.

“Then why are you behind the counter like you’re the bartender?” Tanya asked accusingly, like the man was some sort of con-artist trying to impress her. “Mikey!” she hollered. “Hey, Mikey!”

“Yes, Miss Tanya?” A tan muscular man came into view, looking amused at the sight. Mikey has been the bartender who usually served Tanya drinks.

“Is he new?” she pointed at the man. Mikey laughed as the man suppressed a shy smile.

“Alright, serve those two ladies over there. I’ll take care of Miss Tanya,” the man said and playfully shoved Mikey towards the other direction. Eyes fluttering shut and then snapping right back open. She observed the back of the man who dragged her from the dance floor. It was damn sexy.

“What’s your name?” Tanya blurted. He didn’t face her. He was still busy with her drink. A moment later, Tanya knew he wasn’t going to answer, so she tried again. “What’s your name?” The man looked over her back and held a finger against his lips, shushing Tanya, and smiled before going back to work. Tanya blew her hair out of her face in impatience, she needed another drink. Sitting upright, or what passed to be upright, she fixed her hair and then propped her hands on her legs like a proper lady would do. Silently impressing herself, Tanya smirked. She had become a wasteland and then demure the next. Finally the man turned around and placed a hot cup of coffee in front of her. The strong bean scent managed to bypass the numbing barrier through her nose, allowing the alcohol to take a bit of its toll on her head.

“What is this?” she asked dumbly. Late in noticing that the man was resting his elbows across the counter and watched her.

“Coffee,” he said plainly. “To clear your head,”

“I don’t want my head to clear, it’s hurting already.” Tanya held her temples. “And I don’t drink coffee this strong,” at that, the man frowned.

“It’s not that strong, really.” he sounded offended.

“Yeah? Then why is it messing with my head?” she groaned, feeling her head throb harder than her usual hangover migraines.

“You’ve just had too much alcohol, just drink it. I promised you a drink, didn’t I?” he shrugged. Head clearing up, Tanya did her best impression of a girl who was sober and pouted her lips. Her lipstick was smeared on the right side of her face, hair disheveled like a bird’s nest and dress strap hanging precariously by her shoulder that threatens to commit suicide and even then the man said nothing, offered nothing but this single cup of coffee.

“You sure, you didn’t put any drugs in it?” she asked.

“Nope,” Shrugging, Tanya took a sip, eyes never leaving those dark ones, that again, she failed to notice earlier. The bean scent wafted into her nostrils more insistent, bringing her senses back to life and her head, despairingly, to a throbbing headache, but as she downed the last contents of the cup, admittedly, she felt better.

“Cameron,” he said. Tanya looked up, more aware of her surroundings than earlier. The deafening dance music slammed at her but she heard the man – who now had a name – clearly.

Posted in Poetry

Involuntary Ten

I lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling,

counting my breath from 1 –

2 –

3 –

You’re still not there. Maybe off on an adventure,

One I care nothing of, one I am not a part of

So, I close my eyes and count again, this time, the beats of my heart, 4 –

5 –

6 – Sigh…

You’re still in there, somewhere, tucked underneath the folds

a place inside me that I can’t reach. a place where I have no control

I count once more, how many blinks my eyes perform,

7, 8, 9 –

Tears never reached the floor…

that’s right, nothing comes after that –

You never were anywhere anymore.